Time Of My Life

  The last two months have been happiest months of my life. Granted i did have some breakdowns and seriously contemplated giving up and going home but there was one person that kept me here. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me. So Meghann and I have known each other for 2 and a half years now but I blame myself for why our history is the way it is. So just a little over a year ago me and meghann couldn't go a day without talking to each other. I was falling in love with her and i had only seen her in person maybe ten days total. I was crazy about her. We had everything in common and i had this crazy attraction to her i had never experienced before. But me being the super anxious person that i am i couldn't stand the distance. I needed her with me. I freaked out and did something i shouldn't have ever done, i broke it off with her. It was the hardest and stupidest thing i've ever done. I was a wreck. Needless to say i made a massive mistake. We didn't talk for a year but she was on my mind the whole time. I missed her so much.  But thankfully she messaged me on Facebook in January. i was soo excited! I didn't know what her situation was but it was awesome to hear from her. i gave her my number and we started texting. It was like no time had passed. We just picked up where we left off. So over the winter break i got this idea that i should move in with my brother in Rexburg and start fresh. A change of scenery. When i get an idea and it makes sense in my mind i go for it. I cant help it. Its what i've always done. So i made some calls and it was set. I was going to Rexburg. A few weeks later the re connection with Meghann happens. Which only fueled the fire. It meant i would only be 4 hours away from her. So without telling my parents i booked a train to take me out a week earlier than originally planned. i would get to spend a whole week with Meghann! i was soo excited. The train ride was 15 grueling hours but it was totally worth it. When i got to the station in salt lake where she would be picking me up i could hardly restrain my excitement. And when i walked out and saw her running to me i don't think there could be a better feeling. I spent an amazing week with her and then i had to move on up to Rexburg. My time up here has been hard to say the least. I have very bad separation anxiety and it tore me up. I felt out of place and alone. The only comfort i had was the texts sent from Meghann. And the fact that i've spent almost every weekend down in salt lake. She kept me going.  I lived for the next time i got to see her. A couple weekends ago i was in salt lake and Meghanns friends were like "wanna go to Saint George?" i had never been to southern Utah so i was in. So the four of us Carly, Caitlyn, Maghann and I started making plans. We changed our destination to Zions and headed on our journey. We camped in the middle of nowhere and that night i couldn't wait any longer and i took her on a walk and i told her that i loved her. I prob should have done it more romantically but i couldn't keep it in any longer. We spent the next day hiking all over Zions and then decided we were all too tired so we went home. Well during all of this i was making plans to move down to salt lake so i could be with her. And my uncle Devin said i could stay with him for a while till i could handle my own. And i got hooked up with a super good job which im pumped about! So i spent last weekend helping Devin move to his new house and spending all available time with Meghann. Durning which she said she was gonna take me some places but wouldnt tell me where cause it was a surprise. She took me to the place called the whisper dome which i had always wanted to go to. Next she drove me up to Draper to a look out which took my breath away. While we were up there she told me she loved me! The single most amazing thing ive ever heard. I could live the rest of my life happy only being able to hear her say those three words. Gosh i love her so much. So its all set. This Saturday i move to salt lake to be close to the most important person in my life. Meghann Louise Kane. I have never felt this way before. When im with her i feel like flying. She makes me more happy than ive ever been. I would go to enormous lengths to be with her. I have fallen madly in love with her and i want to spend the rest of my life with her! I feel like ive left so much of our story out. But all i know is that its just the beginning of our story and im soo excited to spend our lives writing it togther.

I Love You Meghann Louise Kane!!